The Temple

Hello loves! Yes, it has definitely been a while since my last post here. I took some time away to take care of my personal state, and now I want to share with you my testimony of my trial of the past few months. Below is one of the most significant lessons so far in my life, and I pray that it encourages you, uplifts you, and challenges you to pursue Him even more. ❤ 

“…When Jesus had cried out again in a loud voice, he gave up his spirit. At that moment the curtain of the temple was torn in two from top to bottom.”

{Matthew 27:50-51}

The veil of the Temple.

This was the single separation of the people from the Holy of Holies, the dwelling place of the Holy Spirit. Only once a year, an anointed priest was allowed to enter, to offer a sacrifice, without blemish, for the atonement of sin. A sacred time, in a sacred place, in the presence of the Spirit of God Himself.

Then, on that day at Calvary, everything changed.

Jesus Christ was the final sacrifice.

Jesus Christ made the impossible possible.

And when He cried out, giving up His spirit, the veil of the Temple was torn. We were no longer separated from God. God moved out of that place, never again to dwell in a temple made with our hands – but to dwell in the temple made with His. By faith, we are the Temple of the Holy Spirit.

“For I have chosen this Temple and set it apart to be holy – a place where My name will be honored forever. I will always watch over it for it is dear to My heart.” {2 Chronicles 7:16} 

Now one recent night, while writing in my journal, these words came to me:

Who do I see

when I look in the mirror? 

I see a girl 

once a temple,

now destroyed. 

The harder you fight to live for God, the more Satan fights against you. And sometimes, people give up, like I did recently. Here, sisters, is my humanity. For 3 recent months, I fell into a draining, terrifying cycle of depression. I fell away from my Father. Every day, I would choose to ignore the ache in my chest and simply try to battle everything on my own.

My sisters, in this day and age, we are fighting evil daily. And we most certainly cannot fight it alone. When you decide to be alone, to walk away from God altogether, you are, by choice, lost and without direction. You are no longer close to Him. You no longer dwell in His presence.

But during this time, I learned the truth about how I was the temple of the Lord. How I was dear to His heart. I could always come back to Him. Restoration is always possible. I wanted so badly to come back to my Father. But the thing holding me back was when I remembered how wonderful I was doing before I fell away. How I felt God overflowing in my soul. In a desperate search to fill the ache in my soul, I turned to my Bible for the first time in a while. That’s when God pointed the book of Haggai out to me.

Does anyone remember this house, this Temple, in its former splendor? How, in comparison, does it look to you now? It must seem like nothing at all! But now the Lord says: Be strong, Zerubbabel. Be strong, Jeshua son of Jehozadak, the high priest. Be strong, all you people still left in the land. And now get to work, for I am with you, says the Lord of Heaven’s Armies. My Spirit remains among you, just as I promised when you came out of Egypt. So do not be afraidFor this is what the Lord of Heaven’s Armies says: In just a little while I will again shake the heavens and the earth, the oceans and the dry land. I will shake all the nations, and the treasures of all the nations will be brought to this Temple. I will fill this place with glory, says the Lord of Heaven’s Armies. The silver is mine, and the gold is mine, says the Lord of Heaven’s Armies. The future glory of this Temple will be greater than its past glory, says the Lord of Heaven’s Armies. And in this place I will bring peace. I, the Lord of Heaven’s Armies, have spoken!{Haggai 2:3-9}

To all my sisters who, perhaps, have been running from God. Who have given up the good fight. Who have lost the will to fight, because how could you ever be whole again? You were genuinely doing so well before, and now that you’re no longer close to Him, how can you be restored?

Hear me loud and clear. 

Allow yourself to be broken. 

Allow yourself to be humbled by the hand of God. 

Sometimes you have to completely crumble at the feet of Jesus for His light to shine through. Do not be afraid of intimate vulnerability, an admittance of humanity. And I promise you this, love. God has such a mighty and wonderful plan for you. And where you were before is nearly insignificant compared to where He’s taking you next. His Spirit will dwell in you once again. You will see the light once again. Because He promises that the future glory of the temple will be greater than its past. And remember: 

You are that Temple. 

With so much love,


I pray with love that you understand the significance of this. And to anyone that wants to know God in an intimate relationship, to begin your journey with Him: may you allow your heart, just as the veil, to be torn and broken, that the Spirit may enter. 

“We are all broken – that’s how the light gets in.” {Ernest Hemingway}

3 thoughts on “The Temple

  1. Jessi,
    You are so gifted with this talent particularly, of writing and expression! And your so young in years. I can only imagine what God has in store for you and what He will do through you to lead others on this journey in life which is an every day battle (spiritually, mentally and emotionally).
    I’m thankful your back on the battlefield!
    God Bless!

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