The Shepherd Of Our Souls

Y’all.

Our God is so, so good.

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Storytime.

A couple of weeks ago, I was in our local Christian bookstore, talking to a college friend of mine who works there (she is such a gem, you guys). She said she had started a Bible study and invited me to come. Of course, I quickly said yes. I had been pretty lonely leading up to this, and I’d been searching for a Bible study or youth group, but I wasn’t sure where to go. Because the Lord is so loving, He showed me where – and it was this group.

Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. {Proverbs 3:5}

 

Casting all your anxieties on him, because he cares for you. {1 Peter 5:7}

 

Wait for the Lord; be strong, and let your heart take courage; wait for the Lord! {Psalm 27:14}

At 6 PM the next Friday, I walked into the first meeting. I must admit, I was tense. I was worried about what the other girls thought of me. I was concerned with appearance and opinions, rather than honest fellowship. But the whole night went unexpectedly. I ended up meeting three new girls, one of whom I immediately bonded with. After laughter and stories and pizza, we prayed together and began studying. We split into groups and got to know each other, wrote down prayer requests; and afterwards hurriedly gathered our belongings as our parents waited outside.

I was quiet on the way home. That night, it was just me with a notebook, talking it over with God.

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The next Friday, I wasn’t doing so well. I was still a little tense, but I covered it up with a smile. All through the study, I held everything inside. I was hurting – but I absolutely could not let any sign of emotion slip through the cracks.

As usual, God had different plans. When we shared prayer requests, I went last. After a thick silence and my cheeks turning red, I couldn’t hold it in any longer. I started crying – and not just normal crying, but sobbing. The ugly, hyperventilating sobbing – where you can’t breathe (or form proper sentences, which didn’t help a whole lot).

Y’all.

These sweet sisters, these precious people, these wonderful souls I could rant about for days, came and surrounded me with such a love. They waited patiently as I managed to get words out, hugged me, and allowed me to be broken. They spoke words of encouragement, and prayers of love. Then hugged me some more.

When you find people who can see you at your worst, in your ugly-crying-hyperventilating face, and they still care for you so much – you keep those people. Those are good people.

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May 5. Cinco de Mayo. Yesterday. The group was small – just seven of us. It was one of the best nights ever – and not just because tacos were involved. (Yes, tacos. And brownies. We’re not particularly healthy at these meetings.)

There was no crying, no anxiousness, no awkwardness; just seven girls enjoying fellowship with each other and the Lord.

At 9:13 PM, I walked out that door and my heart was full.

Therefore encourage one another and build up one another, just as you also are doing. {1 Thessalonians 5:11}

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Sisters, our God cares so deeply for our souls. He knew I needed fellowship with other young women. He knew the longing in my heart. He knew – and He led me. To green pastures. To still waters. He restored my soul. 

In Him, we have absolutely everything we need. Because He leads us through the greenest pastures, the purest streams, and the loveliest fields. He renews our souls with an everlasting love. He guides us along chosen paths.

He watches us, and even when we walk through the darkest, loneliest valley, He is with us. He will comfort us – and give us the strength to press on. Our cups overflow with goodness and blessings, and His love pursues us every day of our lives, pushing us forward and guiding us. He is our Shepherd.

Take delight in the LORD, and he will give you the desires of your heart. Commit everything you do to the Lord. Trust him, and He will help you. {Psalm 37:4-5}

Sweet sisters, I pray that you will trust the Lord. For He will guide you along the right paths. He will give you what your soul needs.

Trust in your Shepherd, dear. He’s taking care of you.

With much love,

Jessi

 

9 thoughts on “The Shepherd Of Our Souls

  1. Oh Jessi!!! I love you so much!!! I’m so glad to hear that the group is helping you!! Keep listening to God speaking straight to your heart!
    God bless!!!

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