Searching For The Sun – Overcoming Doubt

So keep praying and cultivate patient, long-suffering faith. There will be a day when you find Him unexpectedly at the well of your deepest thirst. {Jon Bloom} 

It’s 7:19 AM. Usually, my room is illuminated by a bright glow at this hour. But today, it’s dim. Thunder rolls. Rain softly kisses the dry leaves that have created a floor on the ground. Leaning upon my windowsill, I watch the yellow leaves of a maple dance up and down by command of the rain drops and breeze. A small rain dance, accompanied by nature’s orchestra.

The rain has come.

Maybe you are experiencing a rain, as well. But, instead of filling the air with refreshment, this rain leaves it empty and void. The storm of doubt. One of the harshest storms that comes upon a Christian. The clouds block out any light and hope, and a bitter cold  surrounds your desperately anxious heart.

Oh, how I stayed in that storm. A few months into my walk as a Christian, I found myself lost in this relentless downpour. It seemed bleak and hopeless, as I looked about this vast confusing forest. Standing there, with no direction to go, I cried out. Where was God in all of this? Why couldn’t I feel His warmth and His love anymore? Why did He seem so distant? But most importantly: how can I get back to my sweet Savior and feel His love once again? If you are in this same storm as I was, my heart aches for you. But I pray that God will comfort you. Dear, there is a road to walk that will lead you to see the sun again.

Look to the LORD and His strength; seek His face always. {1 Chronicles 16:11}

If you are going through a stage of uncertainty, unsure of His beautiful love, doubtful of His Truth, I strongly urge you to go and seek Him. God will never leave you nor forsake you darling, and He is there to listen to your heart. Talk to the Lord, tell Him every little feeling on your heart, cast all your anxiety on Him, for He cares for you! He is the One that will listen to your anxious thoughts and your fears. Know that God is your Father who holds you very dear. He is close. He will comfort you. Talk to Him, completely pour out your heart to God, lay all of your thoughts and feelings and burdens out at His feet. There is such sweet freedom that comes from laying your burden down at the cross.

Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. {Jeremiah 29:12}

Then Jesus said, Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest. {Matthew 11:28}

Pour out your concerns to God, and also, confide in your parents. Your mom and dad love you so dearly. To see you hurting (which believe me, they can see you hurting inside) pains them so much. I urge you to talk to them; avoid hiding your doubts or fears. Doubt is never best kept inside. Discuss your feelings with your parents, with a Godly relative, a close friend. Surround yourself with people of faith. Precious daughter, you are not alone in this. You are never on your own. 

Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer. {Romans 12:12}
Along with fervent prayer and talking through your pain, read God’s words to you. Your thoughts are where the battle is taking place, choose not to entertain doubt. Rather, choose to think on the Truth.

And now, dear brothers and sisters, one final thing. Fix your thoughts on what is true, and honorable, and right, and pure, and lovely, and admirable. Think about things that are excellent and worthy of praise. {Philippians 4:8}
The Word is a powerful light – cling to it. God has placed within you the spirit to overcome anything. Let your mind be filled with the truths of His Word. Doubt is a murky, dark water; but the Bible’s truth is a light that pierces through it. Be determined to get in the Word, stay in the Word, think on the Word, and live in the Word. His words are filled with abounding love and freeing Truth – His perfect love casts out all fear; all doubt.

You will know the truth, and the truth will set you free. {John 8:32}
Therefore, if the Son sets you free, you really will be free. {John 8:36}
Maybe you’re doubtful of Jesus, of God. Unsure of who He is, what He has done, and what He is doing for you. Know that Jesus is as real as you are, and He so strongly desires a relationship with you. God called you as His prized possession from the beginning, His beloved, before you were even in existence. God pours over you such an abundant and blessing-filled love; the love that is so powerful, that Jesus took your sin, your guilt, your shame, your worry, your doubt, your fear, and He bore it on a cross that you may be set free from it. 

There is therefore now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus. {Romans 8:1}
You know that, as the clouds cover up the sun, the sun hasn’t vanished. It is simply hidden for a moment. Similarly, the atmosphere of doubt and disbelief seem to cover up God’s love. Yet His love isn’t gone. You will never lose His love for you, though sometimes, you just cannot feel it.

Dear one, if you struggle with doubt; know that the Lord your God is with you wherever you go. Through the loneliest forest, down the longest road, through the gloomiest and rainiest of days. Remember that by prayer, your faith is strengthened – faith is trusting God and His promise even when we cannot see it. It is the opposite of doubt. By persevering in prayer, and meditating on His word, you will overcome this rainstorm. Oh, how blessed are those who have believed and not seen, for we walk by faith, and not by sight.

Your word is a lamp for my feet, a light on my path. {Psalm 119:105}
I promise, if you talk through your doubt with Jesus, with your parents, you will find the way again. If you determine to persevere through trial and stay in God’s word, you will be blessed. You’ll run once again, filled to the brim with the joy of your Father, and feeling the warming love of the Son.

Yes, you should rejoice, and I will share your joy. {Philippians 2:18}
Precious daughter of the King, you are loved!

7 thoughts on “Searching For The Sun – Overcoming Doubt

  1. Yesterday I was reading John 11, about Mary, Martha, and Jesus raising Lazurus from the dead. (I’ll probably write a post about it some time soon.) Anyway, can you think of any specific books (and/or chapters) of the Bible that would be helpful to read? I’ve always gone to church and I’ve been in the Bible, just not really on my own. Any advice?

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    1. Hi Alex! I hope you are doing well. (also I love that chapter! Your post about it was very good, you had an lovely take on it!)

      I’m very sorry for my super late reply. After Thanksgiving, I had no access to wifi for nearly a week, but I’m back now 🙂

      So! Don’t worry about being in the Bible on your own, it gets a lot easier after you’re in it for a little while. I found it was best to search around for a version that you really like – sometimes having a different version around can help you understand a certain verse or book better. I use the NLT (New Living Translation), but occasionally turn to my Apologetics Study Bible (HCSB).

      I encourage you to read through the New Testament, starting with these books (in parentheses are my favorite verses from them):

      Philippians – (1:6, 2:5-11, 4:4-8)
      Romans – (15:13)
      2 Corinthians – (1:3-7, 12:9-10, 4:6-9)
      1 Timothy – (1 Tim. 4:12, 2:5, 6)
      2 Timothy – (2 Tim. 1:7, 2:11-13)
      1 Peter – (1:3-4)
      1 Thessalonians
      Colossians – (3:1-11)
      Psalms – (19, 32, 33, 51, 119)
      Hebrews – (4:12-16, 2:18)

      I’m praying that these verses will help you, and that “the grace of the Lord Jesus Christ be with your spirit” (1 Phil. 4:23). ❤


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  2. Hey Jessi! Tonight I looked at your (newish) blog for the first time! And let me just say….. You write like a professional writer!!!! And I love how many scriptures were used in this one!!! Love you so much Jessi!! Hope to get together with you soon! 😉 you are precious to me. ❤
    Love, Julia

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  3. I know you wrote this post a super long time ago, but thank you for writing this. Doubt has been a constant struggle for me, but God has kept me this far and I believe He will keep me to the end, therefore I keep pressing on. It’s so important to press on—to continue to read the Word even if some days you feel nothing, and pray without ceasing even though you’re tempted to believe the lie that He isn’t there, and talk to parents and godly friends about it. God has been so faithful and so good through it all; I am so thankful that He is patient with us through our struggles with unbelief. ❤️ God bless!


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    1. So sorry for my late response, Maddie, but thanks so much for your sweet comment! It makes my heart so happy that you’re learning about God’s faithfulness and love. Lots of love to you sister!

      Jessi ❤

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